I suppose my topic for today is acceptance. I know I've talked about this before, but I don't know that I will ever be finished learning it. Scratch that. I will never be finished learning about acceptance. Why is it so hard to grasp? We are so busy clinging on to what we loved yesterday that we cannot see the beauty that is in store for us. It's like God has to pry our little fingers off of an old toy saying "come on, don't you want to have the latest model?" To which we reply "No not really... I'll just hold on to this one."
I think it will take me a lifetime to learn that safety is not the goal. Safety... is not... the goal. In fact, I have found that in general the goal of God seems to be making things very uncomfortable and unsafe. Meanwhile I am doing everything I can to force everything back into safe mode. Hmmm, seems as if I would stop fighting God I'd probably not lose nearly as much energy lol. New is not safe, but new is almost ALWAYS BETTER!! I believe that the reason most of us have so much trouble with change and new circumstances is the underlying mistrust we have of God to take care of us. If we truly trusted that God was orchestrating a beautiful miracle before our eyes every second of our lives, would we really be afraid to let go of what we have right now? Over and over I have seen a painful situation turn into a glorious opportunity for more life and success. Yet each time things begin to change I am tempted to panic! I'm sure hoping that all that "human conditioning" psychology crap begins to work in this area haha.
Right now I am faced with acceptance and shedding my old stuff. I must embrace the new path in this moment. And when I say that, it seems so gloomy. Like I'm saying - "ok, you got me God, fine take my trash if you have to." But no! It doesn't have to be like that! And it shouldn't be like that. God is taking away my old things that I no longer need so that He can give me the new things that He has in store for me. I have the opportunity to watch new miracles unfold and I get to be excited that He has chosen to take me to the next level. I wish I could say it is easy, but I find myself slipping back into tears, grasping at what used to be. I need reminders constantly. So... what about you? What do you struggle with accepting? Can you see new circumstances as a gift? Tell me about it - defytheaverage@gmail.com.
